:'(Do you ever feel like ur alone all the time? You have no 1 to talk to and u

Don't be! what ever u need to get off ur  :-*chest ur feeling mad angry or sad spill them out here.... What is troubling you the most? What can we all do to help one another?

I feel alone all day everyday, from morning to night. I really don't have no one to talk to. I'm 21 and I still haven't come out. It's hard to keep that inside of you and pretend to be something you're not. I'm tired of pretending to look at girls when i'm with my friends coz they're "hot". I'm tired of trying to find excuses why i don't have a girlfriend. And i'm so freaking tired of spotting an incredibly attractive guy and not being able to look at him for more than 2 seconds because I don't wanna give clues and let people know my secret. There is not a moment when I'm not thinking twice about what I'm saying, what I'm doing, who I'm looking at, the way I walk, the way i talk....etc. And it exhausting, mentally and also physically. It used to be hard, now it's depressing. Everything mounts up and it weighs heavy on my heart. It's actually harder for me to breathe now coz of all that stuff that's inside.

And here's the thing, I know i will lose so many people in my life, starting with my family. And as if that's not hard enough, I know for sure that many of my friends (and there's only a handful of them) will walk away and have nothing to do with me.

U know what i want? A fresh start. I wanna start from scratch and make new friends and introduce my gay self instead of this......actor. I hope that's not too far away. But i'm also the kind of person who doesn't let go of his past. So i don't know how that's gonna work out but i gotta take the risk. It's worse not taking it.

I'm really looking forward to meeting you all. Pls people start writing. About anything, it doesn't matter. Keep the topics flowing.


Cheers

oh god im lonely.

I broke up with my ex.

I don't miss her but i miss being with someone.

You know someone i can just hug or kiss or just lay with. I'm gonna meet up with someone today and see what happens lol.

But I'm still really glad i got out of the relationship.
I just wanna hug someone right now! anyone ? meet me and i'll hug you ;p

Good topic to start lillesbo
'work_in_progress' is there anyway you can meet some other people? Make some new friends perhaps. Maybe if you could aknowledge your sexuality with some people (like you are doing with us) it would make life easier.
Isolation and loneliness is really hard, i get into patterns of isolation when i am having a hard time and its not good.
My stress at the moment is my health, i've been really unwell for over a year know and the doctors dont know whats going on. Well doctors are hardly listening to me and its really frustrating. And its scary not knowing what is going on and when/if i'll get better. I think i have chronic fatigue or something and it has changed my life. I had to give up my ACTAS (act academy of sport) scholarship and stop playing stop because i just cant do it, so thats really hards that was my whole liife for ages and now its gone so i'm feeling really lost.
I actually feel better already for saying that, i find it hard to talk about because i dont have a diagnosis.
thanks for listening
 

i'm feeling very alone at this moment. i wish i had someone to call who would lug their lazy arse over here to see me even though it's really late..
i guess i just really need someone to talk to right now, but face to face because i'm really missing human interaction. Stoopid holidays.
i wish i could go to Bit Bent on Monday..
haha sorry you have to put up with my teenage angst
Free Hugs to everyone who's already ranted in this topic
<3<3<3 much luff Al

im allways endlessy stuck at home not doing anything not going anywhere and getting more angrey.. i dont want to change..
yet so many counsellers are telling me i have to change..for my own self. and then people might take a notice to me.. they might talk to me more.
i don't know what to do.. i allways did homeschooling i finshed school now. i don't know anybody at all.. my ex she dumped me because she said i was 2 insecure and she didnt like that. that was a year ago.
i am biasexual i just dont like going places alone because i feel lonesome and it makes me sad sometimes.
i hate being in Isolation and haveing to have loneliness.
i can't do anyhting because im a shy person, 

Shyness is such a hard thing to deal with isn't it. I sympathise with you Kat i know what its like to feel alone and isolated. What was home schooling like? I had always thought it would be good because i always seemed to be having a real hard time with people at school. But at least i was still getting that interaction even if some of it was negative.
Maybe dont think so much of changing just getting out there and letting people know what you are like. Im sure your a great person even if you dont always feel like it! Have a *hug*
And alwest heres a cyber *hug* not as good as in person but its a start!

Thank you so much "it_simply_is" for your concern. What u said meant a lot. It means a lot to know there's people out there like me, who care enough to hear what i want to say.

I just had to get that off my chest. Hope I didn't sound very desperate. I am gonna start a new chapter of my life very soon and so I'm keeping my fingers crossed and I'm ready to work hard for things to get better coz I can't wait till they do. And I wish that for you too sweetie.

About your health, I understand what you mean when you said you were scared coz you don't have a diagnosis. It's way harder and scarier not knowing. And I'm no psychology expert, but I always hear stories of people with deadly diseases, who are told that they only have a few months to live (if not days). But because they keep hanging on to hope, not only do they make it through but they become stronger people. So keep holding on to hope. Never let go. You lose hope, you lose everything. And it might take time (or it might not) but WHEN you get through this, it'll be with hope

I know being lost is very daunting. But pls you gotta have faith in yourself and know that this too shall pass. I believe that everyone has to go through a rough patch at some stage in their lives. But once they have, it's downhill from there. Because it teaches you a lot. You automatically become a wiser, stronger and more confident and tolerant person. That's how the world works. You only get to the good stuff after you've been through the rough stuff. You know, some of the movies that have a similar storyline to this are not all lies or fiction. Just always keep your chin up and look to the future coz it's the best thing we've got. It might involve taking risks, but then again...what's life without risks?

Hell, I feel like that helped me as much as it helped you. I didn't know I had all of that in me. Hope i was of any help. But the person who can help you the most is you. All the best. 

Thanks for your kind (and smart words) 'work_in_progress'. I dont think i have a life threatening illness, but it has changed my life. But you are right, be strong and optimistic!

Sorry i havent replied for awhile... But i did read all of it... I just want you to think why you feel upset, how did it all begin and why you still feel like shit... Sometimes its very hard to talk to friend or family but their is ur inner self to talk things thru and wat ur heart says.

"What can i do to make me feel alive again?" You're askin? 

Take one step forward and do something u have always wanted to do in life and break free! Cry if you have to, laugh, sing it doesnt matter.
Dont listen to the ones that doubt you, abandon you, make u sad or angry..Stuff them!!! !! Life is a PARTY, live life to the fullest.
You can do anything, say anything, make ur life the way u want it, not wat others expect or want from you.
You are u believe in ur self Be comfortable about u because u have control of ur life..

i was talking to sombody on msn the other day my mum walked into my room without permission and saw me chatting on msn i wa slike it's private. and saw me write down that i was biusexel to sombody on my msn we had this huge fingt i got so angrey she even made me cry. she was like that isnt normel i feel ebarrssed i dont want any of my work friends knowing that my daughter is bi it will ruin my reputation.. i got so upset.. i was like this is how i am i cant change who i am. i cant be streght just because you think it's right that i should be like that. but she didn't understand at all she kept yelling at me..s aying that it wasnt normel tha ti should be normel. i yelled back and said well who's classified as normel theses days. and she just said your supposted to like guys only likeing girls is wrong. she got so angrey she walked out and slammed the door.. now that my mum knows..each time i make eye contact with her she doesnt look at me the same as she usted to.. not in a loveing sort of family way.. as if she depises me now.. i just feel so lonely and sad.. why can't she understand me on who i am. why can't she accept me on how i am.
 

Kat108.... Hey i know how u feel... especially ur mum saying that kinda things to u, Family should be supportive and everyone around you! I guess most ppl feel threaten by the fact we are Gay/bi because they are either jelous or want the best for you.. yeah it sound silly but its tru... Just remember dnt let anyone put u down.

I guess all families ar different when thier child tell them that they are gay sum take it to heart and cry sum are against it and sum support it, it takes time to sink in but give it time......... Head up chook

I am very lonely right now.

Picture this. Two weeks ago I was so happy. not a worry in the world. I had a beautiful girl, I was happy with my job and my family/home life was bearable.

There is no need to name names in this story, but here goes...

This was until my girl and I went to the coast. She got a panicky message from her ex so she told me she wanted to call her and calm her down. So we went in search of a payphone, but when we found them, none of them worked. My girl looked so worried and I noticed I had one bar of signal on my phone so I let her use it. We got back to our tent and she asked me if I was ok, and thanked me for letting her use my phone. Then she told me she loved me so very much. So any concerns I had about her calling her ex were temporarily alliviated.

We went home the next day. She seemed in a hurry, I assumed because she was tired. We both were. I went back to work the next day and told everyone how well the holiday went, and how happy I was. After work I called my girl to tell her what the situation for Valentines day was. She seemed cold and distant, but insisted nothing was wrong. Then as soon as I was off the phone she sent me a text saying "we need to talk".

She told me that day, while I was at work, she had gone to her ex. They had made love and wanted to get back together. And now they are

I didn't take it to well. And she is hating me for my lack of dealing with this. Because frankly I have done some stupid things since she broke up with me... but... how could I not? So I am very hurt. And very very alone.   

WhoA! im v. sorry to hear all that 'punk_rocker_87'... that was a nasty card you just got handed.  No wonder you are lonely but i am very sorry to hear that.  I am lonely too - hence the writing on chat rooms at midnight on a Sunday! but cant say i have any pearls of wisdom for you im afraid.  Your past gf sounds like a *B&*@H* - im sorry i shouldnt say such things i know - but she should not be making you feel bad when she is Sooooo the one in the wrong and SO WHAT if you did some silly things in the heat of the moment just after she told you she was back with her ex - i know id be doing some crazy whacked out things if that had happened to me and i would probably feel hurt and in agony for decades! - but NO that is not what im encouraging you to do - um well i hope she soon realises what she lost in breaking up with you & then you can go "Ahahaha in your face" - okay now im getting nasty and probably making you feel worse... must go attempt sleep.  Okay well please try not to feel so lonely and down - im not going to say why and sound like im realing off a psyche101 lesson - but at least if you do feel lonely/ sad/ depressed or whatever - at least know you are not alone - i am here with you along with many others on this chatsite im sure - one nice big happy lonely sad family - hoorah!!   

Sorry all, but I decided to delete my post.  Problems!  HA!  They're MOSTLY a thing of the past now, and to read them doesn't help to keep them that way.