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On the 18th of February at the tender age of nineteen, I huffed and puffed and pushed my son into the world. Many women say giving birth is a heart warming experience, but for me all I could think about was the fact I hadn’t eaten for 2 days and was slowing starving to death. (I ate dinner 5 mins after giving birth.) Soon after the birth of my son I went looking for a mothers group. You have no idea how hard it is to find a mothers group that supports young, single and bi-sexual women. If you live in Canberra I wouldn’t bother looking.
I had no idea that having a child could change my life in such a profound way. It was in my early years of uni that I came to the realisation that being a mum and Bi could play havoc with your social life. I had finally bitten the bullet and told friends and colleagues that I was Bi SEXUAL. (Oh the shock, the horror, quick go hide your children from the perverted freak.)
I had many straight, lesbian and gay friends but I often felt that I didn’t fit in. You see being a young mother, a uni student as well as bi-sexual can equal social death in today’s society. I didn’t fit neatly into any box; I wasn’t a lesbian nor was I a straight woman. Many of friends gay and straight felt that I should just hurry up and pick a team. ‘Get off the fence’ I was told on many occasions, ‘You can’t like girls you’re a mother’ I was also told. Straight guys were the worst, they felt that because I was openly Bi I would want to demonstrate this with a private showings.
I often found myself pretending that I was either fully straight or fully gay; it all depended on the friends I was with at the time.
I have now moved on from uni and I am working in the education department, but if you think this story has a happy ending where everyone accepts my sexuality then you’d be wrong. I have made the choice not to disclose my sexual preference to my work colleagues, which means I’m pretending all over again. I’d like to join in on discussions about relationships but I have heard too many comments, which many straight people say when they think everyone around them is straight also.
I hope when you read this you see past the crap writing and find a little insight into a young mum who happens to be bi.